purity.
December 20, 2009
a God who is going to operate on a cancerous world would require nothing less than completely sterile instruments.
God can only work through a clean vessel.
purify my heart Lord.
teach me to walk in Your righteous ways.
for its only by this, i am able to walk close and right with You
only by being pure and righteous, i can live a life that pleases You.
decisions still left hanging,
i cant do much.
i can only rely on God.
i hate my attitude.
All for love the Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified
Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me
Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You
Let me sing all for love
I will join the angels song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all
All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You
the one song, that made me cry after what seems like a gazillion years.
everything i need is You
nothing lasts forever
only You do.
thank You Jesus, for dying on the cross
thank You, for making Christmas meaningful.
i will always count on You, rely on You, love You.
no words could describe the overwhelming feelings tonight.
this IS not temporal.
this will carry me through, the rest of my life with God.
reflections after camp.
December 17, 2009
this camp was relatively a very different one
different from other camps
i brought in a different heart towards camp too.
many things i want to change in.
when camp started, it was still alright and all
but soon my attitude towards everything starts to change
i dont know why
but yeah,
i start to discover so many faults within myself,
so many feelings i’ve never experienced before.
i didnt really experience God until regeneration
when my perspectives of everything has changed
i started to understand how great it was to be on stage,
how great it was to minister to people using my musical talents
one thing that struck me was that
yining said this when i asked her if i should move on to ywam
“you have to understand this, are you serving music with your skills, or serving God, wanting to glorify Him with your skills?”
very true. serving God, or serving music?
if i ever get this chance to move on to ywam,
i want to make sure that my motives are right.
that i want to glorify God in this area of my life.
not to make myself feel higher by showing off my music skills.
on a personal note,
i actually found true joy in serving God by playing tpt
i still remember two days before camp asking peter and em if i should back out, due to my lack of confidence and faith.
but im glad, really glad that i can play.
the experience on stage is one that money cant buy.
my walk with God ~
i actually got to worship Him w/o burdens and all for a few times
and i think i did improve 
on a side note, was really happy that the girls came for second day(:
even though not for long, but hope they enjoyed it still
nonetheless,
i had this weird feeling throughout the camp,
i think its still because of my bad attitude towards many things.
but i know,
camp is over, i cant change anything.
life transformation begins after camp.
i will work hard from now.
many uncertainties i have for now
many decisions to make.
either decisions in my life, directions to go, decisions if i want to lead, or decisions to love people i dont.
level up camp was alot about building foundations and getting the facts about certain things right
and i think that i have slowly began to realize
camp is not when you get high in camp and it means that you’re growing already.
this camp however, let me get the facts right,
and it is after camp when i have to decide certain things,
and when they are decided by asking God and clarifying certain things,
i will grow!
i love my sheep(s)
they will be my driving force.
nonetheless.
God is my main driving force.
to serve him to the fullest
cant wait for camp.
watched this a million times maybe.
been a year already!
everytime i watched it, it still triggers back emotions
memories from the past.
deyi band (Y) memories.
spot me! xD
met up my two cutest sheep today(:
they’re just adorable.
esp jo who lost her way while trying to get to icekimo
HAHAHA =x
yeah!
i believe in them
and i will continue doing it.
it feels as if im doing all these alone.
okay, correction,
im doing all these with God,
and my people.
in life,
there are so many
if onlys we could look back too
if only i had studied harder
if only i had done this
if only i had done that.
X if onlys. live life to the fullest.
